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Dear Readers,

As of now, I will be posting on a new blog in blocspot.  The blog is here:  http://bex126.blogspot.com/

Please visit it...I'll try to post the same posts here for a while, but I'll probably switch over permanently soon.

Becca

I don't know if I'm writing right now to vent my frustrations, to procrastinate, or because I have nothing better to do.  I have a lot of work and studying that I need to get done, but I'll get it done by the time it's due, so I'm not too worried about that.  I also have this huge chunk of free space in my weekend now that I've rearranged my schedule so that I have the weekend completely free just to find out today that there wasn't a need for that, so perhaps I can get some work done then...though the work I'm thinking about is all this week.  I'm so angry right now.  I just want things to go back to how they were.  I want so much, but now it feels as though I'll never get what I truely want.  That's okay, I'll adjust.  My life has been crazy, especially this past week.  One minute I was so happy that you couldn't bring me down if you tried...and now it feels like that happiness was a dream.  I wish I could go home and just forget about things here for a while.  I'll persevere.  I've been saying this a lot lately and I'll say it now...If I can just make it to December, I think everything will be fine.  That's only a month away.  That doesn't seem like so long, does it?

Current Mood: angry

Maybe I'll start blogging oftenish...maybe it'll help me get out my feelings.  We'll see I guess.

Current Mood: blank

I miss her so much.

I'd like to update more often, but I just can't make any promises.  This summer has been full, very very full.  In the coming weeks, I will be taking a trip to Ohio for a family reunion, followed by a trip to New York with my friend Amanda.  I've never been to the city, and she has family there that we can stay with.  I am quite excited about this!  I was planning on going on a cruise in October over fall break, it was even booked, but my friends pulled out on me (understandibly though), which is disappointing to say the least.  I am not mad at them or anything, as I said, I totally understand the reasoning, and hey, that's an extra $500 that I can put into savings or toward my credit card bill or something.  I just feel that that was my last opportunity to go on a vacation with any of them since starting in January my life will not really be mine anymore and I'll  be on a completely different schedule from them.  Maybe we can at least take long weekends at Jenny's lake house or something (sorry jenny for inviting myself!) 

In other news, I've made friends with an international student this past semester, and he's leaving to go home tomorrow and it's kind of sad.  I'm excited to be his pen pal though, I've never had one of those before.  He can work on his english and I can work on my dutch.  So far, my dutch vocabulary consists of one word, and I can't even spell it. 

If you read this and your name is Adria, please call me soon!

That's all folks.

Current Mood: indifferent
Current Music: The air conditioner

I've been summoned for jury duty...yuck!

Current Mood: annoyed

Here's my PersonalDNA report.  I think it's somewhat accurate.

Thank you everybody for such a WONDERFUL birthday and for everything you have done for me!

It seems like every time I come home I'm sick, and this time is no exception. I hate feeling yucky, and hopefully I will feel better very soon. Other than that, I'm really excited to be home. I can't wait to go see friends (read Adria) and hang out, I can't wait to celebrate my dad's birthday (Christmas Eve) and of course I can't wait to celebrate Christmas. No clue what I'm doing for New Year's, maybe just staying home with the family if nothing comes up.

Current Mood: sick

I'm sitting at a computer in the math and physics library, with my math test about 1 hour and 18 minutes away...yet I just can't bring myself to study. It's like I've already given up on this class. I really hate that, but I still feel that no matter how hard I try I will not do well in this class. The last test we had, the highest grade was in the 60's (I got a 38, a 52 with extra credit), and he's still not curving the test. I don't think I've ever gotten a 38 on a test, or anything else for that matter, before. My best hope for this class is to make a D so at least I can pass, but I don't like what that'll do for my GPA. I spent most of my time the past week studying for a physics test, which somehow makes it better that I've spent very little time studying for this one. I'm disappointed in myself for how slack I've become about it, about all of it. I want to try harder.

On a more positive note, I'm going home this weekend. It seems that whenever I write in here it's before I go home. I'll try to be better about that. Hopefully I'll have a nice and relaxing time, and won't have to do much other than study a little weather and climate, and read a lot for other classes.

Going to go study now. Wish me luck!

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: the sound of the computers humming

I'm going home this weekend and I cannot wait!!! It wasn't long ago that I last went home, but that weekend I was sick and slept the whole time, so, it's a good thing that I'm going home.  The down side is that this weeked I will have a LOT of work to do since I have 2 tests next week, along with an Education project and normal homework.  I'm going to do my best to get some of that done ahead of time, but I'm not sure exactly how much I can get done.

I've started going to the classroom, and I'm so excited about it! I'm working in a 7th grade science classroom, and it makes me anxious to become a teacher.  The students all call me Ms. Bryant, which makes me feel old, but excited nonetheless.  Since I was out I ran errands today.  I went to the laundry mat to do my laundry because I hate fighting for washers here, but I will NEVER do that again.  First of all, all they have is the extra large washers and clearly I was not going to wash my whites with my darks.  Second, I was doing oh so well on my paper when this one man came up and started hitting on me.  He kept asking me for my telephone number, even after I told him I was not single and that I lived with my boyfriend (the second part is not true), and I was not interested.  More than anything it was the disruption from my work that bothered me.  He asked me to go to the grocery store with him, and that was quite random. 

Anyhow, after that, I came back to campus (my dorm) and now I'm at work getting ready to go to Staff Meeting # 1.  Oh yay! 

School's been going well, though I am worried about my math class.  Somehow, I just don't really understand Non-Euclidian Geometry.  Who woulda thought that it was possible for triangles to have more than 180 degrees? 

That's it for now, seeing as I have to get to my meeting, but I'll post again soon (maybe.)

Current Mood: amused

Just a few more days and training will be over, move in will be over, and I can start with classes.  I will be most happy about getting more than just a few hours of sleep (I hope).  I'm exhausted, and several people have told me so.  I hate that I look tired and people can tell, they think something is seriously wrong with me, but I don't think anything's wrong, I'm just tired, plain and simple.  When I'm tired, I get really really irritable, so I'm sorry if I've acted this way toward any of you.  We gotta figure out our schedules so maybe we can have lunches or walk to class together.  Yay for the start of the semester:-)

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Jackson 5-ABC

It has been quite a while since I've last updated, so here I am now.  My life this summer hasn't been spectacular, though I have had a good time.  For instance, I spent this past weekend at Carowinds with some friends, and I got to relax quite a bit at the Wyndham Hotel...and while Carowinds was fun and entertaining, I must say that I enjoyed the relaxation the most because I havn't done that in a long long time.  I think it was overdue.  I bought Harry Potter too, and I'm really really excited to read that, but I'm going to read Cold Mountain first.  I miss hearing from my friends that are in other places...Jenny and Mia are in Mexico, Adria's busy working all the time in Charlotte, and Bryan is too.  I'm just glad that  I have people here that make the time go by a lot quicker and so I don't dwell on the fact that they're not around. 

Okay, so pretty much, I havn't done that much this summer other than work and hang out with friends.  Enough of that. 

What's everyone's schedule like for this coming semester?  I'd like to have lunch if possible!  Maybe we're even in classes close to each other and can walk to class together, or something like that. 

I don't know what else to write at the moment, so I'll be going now.

Current Mood: cheerful

I'm bored, so I just felt like writing in here, though I have nothing to say. I'm coming home this weekend, so if you wanna hang out call me, though it can't cost money because i have no denero (or however you spell that). Lots of Love

Hello All! The semester is over, but tomorrow starts summer session...yay math 81 (not really).  Anyway, this past semester was pretty good, I faired well academically.  I made the Dean's List, which is a plus definately.  I'm redoing my room today, I'm getting a couch so I'm gonna loft my bed over my futon and put my couch where the bed is.  I'm excited, I need a change.  Today all I'm doing is working and doing my room.  I might make a trip over to the hospital, my Grandma is having a mastectomy today and my dad said I should be there since he can't. Anyone reading this go here: http://www3.caringbridge.org/nc/abronkelly/  .  She needs all the thoughts and prayers she can get.  Her name is Abron and she's my cousin by marriage and she has a kidney disease.  Okay.  So who's coming to visit me and when?  Let me know!  Gotta get to work now!

Current Mood: creative

Good morning all!!!  While I'm stressed at this moment, my exams will be over in a flash (tomorrow at 3).  But I know that many of you still have exams throughout the week, so good luck on those!!!  If you need anything please let me know, I'll be happy to oblige.  Okay, that's all for now.  I have two exams today, but they don't start until 4, so until then I'll be in Davis library getting some studying done.  Good luck!

Current Mood: anxious

So I've had a great weekend!  I came home on thursday afternoon after tutoring, went straight to my little brothers baseball game and actually enjoyed myself.  Friday I got up and went to the red cross and gave blood, afterwords, hung out with adria pretty much the whole day.  That was so nice! I miss her, I wish she were back at the hill!  This evening I went to dinner with bryan, then we met adria and steve for dessert then some bowling, which was awesome! And now here I am writing about all of this.  I'm gonna stay at the hill for the summer, I got a job in the dorms and I'm also taking a class, so if you're gonna be up there let me know so I can have a friend.  I'm gonna miss everyone like CRAZY!!!  Okay, well, thats about it for now. 

Current Mood: happy

So I think I finally have my schedule worked out...

Current Mood: content

Yay, I finally got to sign up for classes, no thanks to the cashiers office.

Though Spring Break was pretty good, I'm kinda glad to get back to school and get on with the semester. I have so much to do this week, hopefully I'll get it all done. So during Spring Break I went to the beach, but it rained, a lot, and the heat was not working for the majority of the time I was there. I still had a good time.

A big highlight was seeing Adria and hanging out with her for the day. I miss her so much, I wish she could be here with the rest of us. I really need to get into studying more, I felt I studied alot for my philosophy test, but turns out I made a C, and I really don't want a C in that class!!! I got my calc test back too, I got an 84 on that, so I'm pretty happy with that. I made stupid mistakes that could have gotten me more points, but oh well, I just have to be more careful next time.

 Not much of an update, but its something. I really smell cause I just got back from an awesome workout at the gym, so I guess I'm off to shower. Later!

Current Mood: chipper